Just a brief note for the two or three "blog buddies" I have who check this blog from time to time... and for The Governor, Jamie and other real life-friends who surf by.

Last week sucked. Absolutely S-U-C-K-E-D. The last while, in fact, has been very stressful ... and the stress seemed to culminate last weekend with the sudden, unexpected death of a good friend. It hit me like a train.

As of my last post, I'd decided to stop blogging for a while for a number of reasons. I can't really put it in words, though. Something to do with the desperation and sadness of trying to have relationships on the internet while the real relationships in your life remain neglected. I have known people ... and I ain't naming names ... who honesty care more about the people they "know" on the net than they do about spouses, friends, family, etc. It's sad to see the effect that has on families. I know someone who's going through something like that now and it's just sad.

And then, just as that feeling was coming into sharp relief, my friend died. His death has had a lot to do with my current train of thought ... This guy was someone I'm truly fortunate to have known. I loved him like family and I never told him that. I felt some disgust with myself and I guess that staying away from the blog this week has been kind of an act of penance.

But I do feel a bit of a compulsion to blog. And I think that ultimately that's because this blog is little more than my personal diary. This is my sounding board and I do think it does me more good than ill. It's not as though I've disappeared into some sort of "second life."

So, anyway, I'm blogging again. My thoughts aren't just going to sort themselves out, I suppose.

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